weird kind of feeling..

it's been kinda long since my last post... well... my dearest blog... i didnt mean to abandon u k.. juz tat i was like no mood to blog.. not becoz i was having bad bad mood throughout these few days... but i had no idea wat to blog with... sook... here am i.. with my update...^^

back to topic... weird kind of feeling... i was undergoing a weird kind of feeling recently... wat is this weird kind of feeling?? i dunno either... if i would have known then i wouldnt call it as "weird kind of feeling"... hmmm... how long do u think a friendship can last?? yeah right.. it is totally depends on who is ur fren n many many other factors... sook... we knew each other for how many years huh??? more than 10 years?? standard 3 until now rite?? we still keep our friendship until today... until this moment.. n i think we will until the day one of us die?? perhapss... ^^.... but i tried b4... story time again... there is a gal... i knew her actualli since my primary... juz knew who she is... not realli close.. then after both of us was in form 1... we dun even say hi to each other when we met... juz imagine the situation la.. but when i was in form 3... this gal she was in the same class with me... so since tat time both of us become kinda close fren... her family noe me n my family noe her as well... (sook.. u should noe la who i refering)... but soon... (end of form 4 year i think)... friendship between us broken... due to certain factors.... both of us... whom was once very close frenz... juz dun care about each other anymore... we dun realli fight... but juz.. dun care....

hmm.... friendship... it can be long... as long as great wall(??? think great wall is long enuf gua~~).. it can be short as well... as short as... erm.. dunno short as wat la...(think it urself...^^)... i knew this fact very long ago... seriously knew it deeply...

wat i dun understand is... y this 2 ppl... whom were once very close to each other... can become a stranger to each other juz like tat...

wat make me confuse is... does friendship realli so fragile??? can break anytime?? juz like tat???

maybe we will meet new friends soon... but... if friendship realli means nothin... wat for we still need to have frenz?? especially those close frenz whom u willing to share ur heart with them... meaningless?? i guess....

maybe sensitive again... (jee.. sensitivity does kill... but belif me i realli tried to avoid k...^^) i got a feeling like i am losing a fren recently... day after day... i feel like i dun realli have this fren as a whole anymore... there was a duno wat grip between us.... a fren whom i realli like so much.... a fren tat i had once imagine the life after both of us worked... married... even after we have child but we still hang out with each other...bringing our own child together while we doing some shopping stuff.. and maybe the story can goes on with my child n hers become close fren oso...(thinking kinda much rite?? haha) but things realli changed... even sumtimes we dun wanna admit... even we deny... even it's hard...

but dun take me wrong... i post all these doesnt mean tat i dun belif in friendships anymore.... in fact... i do realli belif... until this moment... i still belif...